Exam was irritating to the max. Super irritating. I think i hate everything. In other words 身在福中不知福。

You know how it is when you are so idealistic but all those crap that you say doesn't apply to you? Exactly what i am feeling and doing. HAHAHA! And since from the point i have realize it from the module, I have try to minimized the usage of it. But the thing is, its like innate? Sometimes, it just slips out, and than later i feel so screwed. LOL. 


My fears are always the same. ALWAYS! I wonder how long is it going to haunt me. LOL.

If my prolonged pain, relinquished
If my happiness, shunned
An empty shell, forsaken
My nightmare would begin
I see to hope, I hope to see
The two contradicting insanity
The horror, the pain, the trust, the sins
Don't abandon, not me please.

Intellectualization : Ignoring the emotional aspect of a painful experience by focusing on abstract thoughts, words, ideas etc.




Went PS, look at earpieces, good earpieces which cost like $70 to $500? that kuku fever so sot, he wanted to go bugis from PS, so i told him walk straight, junction turn left. he go turn at cathay, walk back PS. =_="

Took cab home from timbre. The cab uncle was nice and friendly. Its make my life hopeful to meet such people. LOL. Its been quite awhile since i have met such cab drivers ok. Its like usually they super unfriendly, or super irritating. haha.




I think i screwed up my gastric like siao? or the area around the gastric or what, the one that control the food - like a flap or what. I cannot really control my food. Very easily will puke already - like usually it takes alot of efforts. Than while puking, the whole gastric will cramp. After puking my whole abdomen cramp. LOL. Its like a few times already, even without drinking. =/